Showing posts with label Lyme disease. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Lyme disease. Show all posts

Friday, March 1, 2019

HEALING CHRONIC LYME INTERVIEW

Back in 2017, I was contacted by fellow Tweeter, Scott Golden (life coach and podcaster of The Power of Perception podcast) to do a phone interview. During the interview, our connection kept on cutting in and out. I was able to talk for about 18 minutes until we were cut off. Scott called back and said that we'll do another interview sometime in the future. And I assumed that he never posted it.

Well, this morning, I happened to Google my name today (lol!),  and guess what popped up? 

The Power of Perception interview! 

So here it is and I'm happy to share 18 minutes of talking about healing from chronic Lyme disease, alternative therapies, releasing past trauma, music, teaching and thought awareness.

Just click the mike and enjoy!





Tuesday, August 8, 2017

AUTONOMIC RESPONSE TESTING FOR CHRONIC SICKNESS

Autonomic Response Testing  is a comprehensive diagnostic system that has helped to transform many practices in the US and abroad into healing centers - and helped many practitioners to become holistic physicians.”
                       ~ from Mercola Articles   The Best Muscle Testing System I Know Of

In My Healing Story, I give a little intro to muscle testing in order to to find imbalances and problems in the body. Both Dr. Sharon Rasa and Dr. Michael Gurevich use muscle testing in their practices, specifically Autonomic Response Testing.

Autonomic Response Testing is a highly sensitive, refined and reliable muscle testing biofeedback system that was developed by Dr. Dietrich Klinghardt,* a brilliant and gifted medical pioneer who teaches Autonomic Response Testing on both the East and West coast. Both Dr. Rasa and Dr. Gurevich studied Autonomic Response Testing with Dr. Klinghardt.

When I was seeing Doc Brown, the investigative doctor who diagnosed me with chronic Lyme back in 1998, the main form of testing was blood tests. And these were the tests that the insurance company paid for. But the tests were not accurate. Especially, when you have many chronic symptoms that are confusing and difficult to treat!  Sometimes my blood work would be fine, yet I was feeling far from fine.

It wasn’t until I started to see Dr. Rasa, that I realized that blood work wasn’t always reliable. And the reason is that pathogens can be mainly found in soft tissue and not in the blood. So if you are chronically sick and go to a Western trained doctor who relies on blood work to diagnose chronic symptoms, you may be misdiagnosed and therefore, mistreated. This is a common scenario for many patients who eventually turn to alternative practitioners for help.

Through Autonomic Response Testing, Dr. Rasa found mercury in my thyroid and brain. And again, through more testIng, found the cause - 4 amalgam fillings that I’ve had since I was a kid. I had them removed by a biological dentist a few months later.
When I first came to Dr. Gurevich, he tested me (Autonomic Response Testing) and found I was still positive for Lyme, Mycoplasma pneumoniae, Epstein Barr virus,  Bartonella and Candida Albicans.  Through Autonomic Response Testing, Dr. Gurevich tracked my progress while I was on the Allergie-Immun therapy.  I had been on the drops for a few months and feeling sick, exhausted and weak every day, so he tested me to see if the drops were good for me. They tested well so I stayed on the therapy.    


Mycoplasma pneumoniae - a persistent bacteria that stayed with me for years - was the first bacteria that AIlergie-Immun helped me to eliminate. How did I know this? I was still positive for mycoplasma when I started the therapy. But within a few months, I was negative and it never came back.

Dr. Gurevich also found that I had adrenal fatigue, hypothyroidism, parasites, more food sensitivities (including gluten, dairy, corn, soy and sugar),  unresolved emotional conflicts, gastrointestinal dysfunction, electromagnetic radiation sensitivities and a high level of mercury in my brain, thyroid, liver, sinuses, intestinal tract and kidneys.

Through Autonomic Response Testing and BAH (Bioresonance Analysis of Health - another advanced diagnostic system), Dr. Gurevich was able to detect all of the above and come up with a treatment plan. And one by one, each issue was resolved.

This video is a demonstration of Autonomic Response Testing by Dr. Douglas Phillips


I highly recommend everyone with chronic sickness  to consider going to an  alternative practitioner who is certified in Autonomic Response Testing. More and more doctors and health practitioners are learning alternative testing, like Autonomic Response Testing and BAH, in order to help their patients heal.  They are worth their weight in gold and can lead chronically sick patients to the root cause of each of their symptoms.


*Louisa Williams, MC, DC, ND and Yoshiaki Omura, MD aided Dr. Klinghardt in developing Autonomic Response Testing.



Sunday, August 21, 2016

Overcoming the Fear of Lyme Disease

This is a  picture of my lower front leg.  Yes, that is some type of rash and most likely a bite from a mosquito or some other flying insect. The funny thing is that I don’t remember any insect biting me.  I hadn’t been on the grass. I wasn’t hiking that weekend. The “bite” seemed to pop up out of nowhere! 
The mysterious rash...

But what I do remember was that this spot started to itch when I was  hearing a very angry speaker at a discussion group.  And what is more bizarre was that I was sitting next  to a woman with a huge black rose tattoo on her thigh and I thought to myself “How could she do that to her leg?” As I was becoming irritated  by the speaker and annoyed by the tattooed girl, that spot on my leg was also becoming more and more irritating and annoying!

Was this a coincidence or a connection? Was this “bite” some kind of emotional reaction?

Within a few days, the  bite expanded and the itching became insanely unbearable. To my horror, I realized that this “bite” looked similar to the original  bullseye  “bite”  that was on my chest back in the spring of 1996.  Memories of that first bite, that plunged me into chronic Lyme disease, flooded my thoughts with fear, panic and dread.

Oh My God, why is this  happening all over again?  Am I’m going to get sick!  I can’t believe it! What is wrong with me? This is not fair! This sucks! I’m screwed!....were the thoughts that were hysterically looping around in my mind.

I also realized that my past trauma was causing me to react on the physical level.  That is “my fear of suspicious bites, triggered my fear of chronic illness (aka chronic Lyme), which triggered my immune system to react.”  (See I Think I’m Getting the Fear - for a  fascinating  therapy session with Dr. Gurevich in which he helps me to overcome the fear of bites and sickness back in 2012).

But with this  new trigger, comes the realization that  I still had more work to do! I was in a complete state of panic! I took a deep breath in order to gather my thoughts and within  a matter of seconds, I became aware that I caught myself  thinking like a victim!

“Why am I telling myself  that I’m going to get sick? Why?  My sickness was in the past. I feel great now!  So why am I screaming to myself “You’re going to get sick!!”

Why would I be wishing misery and sickness for myself? Do I subconsciously want myself to be sick?

Or could this be a thought pattern that I said to myself many, many  times and was just not aware of?

I have learned that every physical condition starts with a thought! This “bite” was my trigger to let me know that I had more healing to do. My fear of bug bites leading to chronic illness had not been fully resolved back in 2012 with Dr. Gurevich. This new trigger was now  my opportunity to shift my perspective from being attacked, to healing  at a deeper emotional and, yes, spiritual level.  And...I had to act quickly before my thoughts had time to manifest into an alter reality of my own creation. In other words, I had to put myself in a healing state before my powerful, influential thoughts became real physical symptoms.

So within a few days…

I began to drink the Lime Medicine Tea - a natural anti-malarial blood cleanser and effective detoxifier, that boosts your immune system! (Click Lime Medicine Tea for the article and recipe.)

Started a course of doxycycline.

Practiced Tapping (Mental Field Therapy) - to help me to overcome the fear of recurring Lyme disease. But since this  fear was so huge and so out of control for me, I could not overcome this fear on my own. I needed help.

So...

During my weekly spiritual discussion group, I talked about my problem and Douglas Economy offered to help me with a constellation process . Through the constellation, Doug guided me into seeing the bite through a  higher, loving perspective.  With this shift,  I was able to observe the rash without fear or judgment. (Click Systemic Family Constellation - A Miracle Therapy for more info)

I also was lucky enough to see CranioSacral Therapist, Kathy Moser, the following day. Kathy helped me to connect to the love,  healer and Holy Spirit within me. Through Kathy’s powerful therapy, I was able to shift out of a state of fear into a state of unconditional love, forgiveness and wellness.  Through this shift, I was seeing myself in a new perspective. I began to see that  my thoughts of recurring Lyme symptoms, are not a part of who I am.  Kathy guided me into seeing my fear of brain fog and fatigue as flowing water, naturally moving from my head through my spine down my legs to my bite and back. This visualization shifted my awareness to a state of inner relaxation and peace.  (Click CranioSacral Therapy & Somato Emotional Release for a past healing session with Kathy)

The fear of Lyme is not who I am and I forgive myself for believing this. Thoughts of fear are beliefs that I created. But they are not real. They are just an illusion that I believed was real. When I shift to my state of unconditional love, I am in a state of peace and wellness. I am learning to see that this is reality. It simply is reality for it cannot be changed. Thoughts of fear - any kind of fear - are not real. - These thoughts can be changed.

When you believe fear is real, then you create  drama in your life. When you see yourself as love and peace, then your life will reflect your inner thoughts.



So with this new perspective in my thought process,  am I out of the panic zone?

Yes!  

But I can honestly say... only for now….

My 2012 Lyme panic and now this new one were not the only times I have had large, irritated itchy, horrible looking, questionable “bites" on my body.  Since my first bite back in 1996, I have had a history of “suspicious bites” like the one  pictured above.  The question that is rolling around in my mind is how can I prevent this “trigger” from happening again? Can it be done?

Yes - I believe it can!

But learning that my reality is unconditional love  - a state of ultimate health and wellness of the body, mind and spirit,  is a belief that is new to me. And this is the healing journey that is ahead of me.

My healing journey has become a spiritual journey of healing my mind. For this, I believe, is the source of all my fears.






Tuesday, July 30, 2013

DR. BEN'S, THE MEADOW and A PRAYER

I was in a dilemma! 

Right before me was a beautiful, country meadow, sprinkled with wild flowers, butterflies, and oh yeah, 3 foot high, overgrown grass!*  But where was the trail? I saw the 3 white blazes on the tree by the road and a slit of an opening through the field. But, wait a minute!

HOLY MAMA! THAT WAS THE TRAIL!!!

HIKING TRAIL at the base of SCHUNEMUNK MT., NY


My heart raced as my past fears of bug bites, Lyme disease, chronic sickness, endless doctor’s appointments, tests, and the financial burden of it all, flooded my consciousness. What choice did I have? My husband was half way through the meadow already!

Well,  I could swelter in the parked car all day. Or, maybe, try to find another way around the field. But I didn’t know the area and my husband had the trail map.

Then it came to me. I have NOTHING  to worry about!  I’m not the same person that I was before. I am stronger, healthier and yes,… a bit wiser. All of those past fears that just popped up into my head are just that – in my past. I didn’t need to be afraid anymore. I have finally found protection on all fronts.

So, as I stood before this bucolic natural park, I felt a shift. A shift from fear and worry to  peace and calm.

This was a test.

Yes, I told myself that this... was simply….a test.

After all, I was protected. And I felt it.

I made sure that I liberally sprayed Dr. Ben’s Cedar Oil Repellent ** from my head to my hiking shoes. And before I stepped into the field, I paused for just a second, closed my eyes and said a little prayer:

I’m protected by God’s light. I’m protected by God’s love and light.”

I opened my eyes as I heard my husband’s impatient voice in the distance calling, “What are you waiting for?”

What was I waiting for?

 I WAS PROTECTED!

 I HAD NOTHING TO WORRY ABOUT!

I believed that this was a test. And I was determined to pass with flying colors. So, as I briskly trekked through the tall grass, wild flowers and butterflies, I continued to say my little prayer.

And when I successfully navigated through the second field (yes, there was another field just like the first!) and carefully inspected myself afterwards, I was one happy and relieved trekker!

I WAS OK!
  
I WAS ABSOLUTELY FINE!

I did not attract one single biting bug that day. Not one bug bite. Not one tick. 

I was protected…  and I knew it.

I felt it.

And that calls for a big  AMEN and a heartfelt thank you to Dr. Ben's!



This is not a typical trail. If it was, I wouldn't be hiking!

**I have no financial interest in Dr. Ben's Insect Repellents










Wednesday, January 9, 2013

TO HIKE OR NOT TO HIKE - That is the ?!


The answer is out there…and it’s looking for you…
Trinity- The Matrix  (1999)

In the spring of 2011, my husband had an epiphany. Through the advice of a wise friend, he was urged to reconnect with nature to relieve stress and bring harmony to his body, mind, spirit and soul. And when he arrived home, he could not wait to tell me the good news:

“I need to slow down a little, turn off my mind and enjoy nature again. When I was a kid, I loved to be in the woods by myself. It was a place where I felt true harmony and peace.  I realize that I miss that and I need to get back to that place again.  I want to go hiking on the weekends and I want you to come with me. I want this to be an activity for both of us, not just for me. It’s great exercise! I know this will be good for you.  Hiking will make you stronger and give you more balance. You’re healthy now so you have nothing to worry about. We’ll start out on easy trails first. It’ll be fun! Trust me, you’ll love it!”

OK – I’ll be honest. I didn’t share my spouse's new passion at first. Dealing with chronic Lyme for all these years made me very apprehensive to be outdoors. But hiking in the woods?  Was this something I really wanted to do?  My fear of ticks and bug bites leading to chronic Lyme was still a huge issue that I had yet to resolve.  I was finally in remission, the first time since my initial tick bite in 1996, and I didn’t want to jinx my luck. And then it occurred to me, I was still on the allergie-immun therapy*. ( See Decoding Allergie-Immun for more info).I knew that the AI drops would protect me from any new infection. This gave me peace of mind. So, I reluctantly agreed to accompany him the following weekend to a popular hiking spot.

And would you believe, a few days after we hiked, I found a #&*% little tick on me! Specifically – in a place where the sun don’t shine! Here I go again! I thought I sprayed on enough repellent, but I guess I was mistaken. So, I sent the tick out to be tested for Lyme and thank God, the results came back negative. But ticks are known for spreading other pathogens, besides Lyme. To my relief, I had no symptoms. I felt fine. The allergie-immun therapy obviously did its job!

I also realized that finding that itty bitty tick was a wake up call for me. I should have worn light colored pants tucked into my socks. I should have sprayed myself from head to toe. And I should have checked myself better when we returned home from our hike. What can I say?  Bugs love me! If only I could cloak myself in an impenetrable shield that would protect me from those nasty, disease spreading insects! And, I said it before, and I’ll say it again, I refuse to wear deet.  Deet is a neurotoxin. (I’ll be talking more about this in a future post.) The energetic allergie-immun therapy  was protecting me now, but I wasn’t going to be on this therapy forever. So my question was: to hike or not to hike?

I was in a quandary. In the past, Dr. Goodsoul had advised me to “be in nature to promote healing and strengthen my body, mind and spirit". As a matter of fact, this is the sentiment of ALL holistic practitioners.  Being in the beauty of nature is a way of keeping grounded and connecting to the divine consciousness within you. Being in nature rejuvenates your spirit and feeds your soul. Simply put, hiking in Mother Nature is therapeutic on all levels. And I have to admit, I was intrigued by this idea.  This little light of hope, that somehow hiking would be healing and beneficial, was the main reason why I stayed on the “warpaths” each weekend.

You think I’m kidding?  The trails were like warpaths to me. While my hubby was in his exuberant glee, I was dodging high grass, stray brush and nervously inspecting my pants every 5 seconds! The biting flies and mosquitoes were the unrelenting grenades, dropping all around me. And the ticks were the blood sucking land mines!

I was in a war and my love of my life…was in his glory! He was absolutely ecstatic! He would bounce up the mountain trails like it was nothing and was rarely out of breath. As for myself, I was always at least several yards behind him, struggling to catch up. And since I was always behind my high-spirited trail mate, I started to make discerning observations. Where did all of his energy come from? I always thought of him as being healthy, hearty and strong. And he definitely was. He never had Lyme disease or any other sickness, for that matter.  He never “caught” Lyme disease from me. As a matter of fact, he is rarely sick. But walking behind him on the trails, I observed something that would change my way of thinking to a more positive and healthy frame of mind.

He had not one iota of fear while navigating the trails. The fear of ticks, of bugs, of bug bites leading to Lyme, just wasn’t in my husband’s conscious or unconscious thoughts.  He hated using repellent and if it wasn’t for me begging him to put some on his socks and hiking shoes, he wouldn’t be using it at all. Bugs were just not attracted to him. Why? Was it his lack of pheromones? Was it his blood type? Or was it the fact that he had no fear of biting bugs and as a result, they didn’t see him as a potential meal? Could pheromone driven bugs sense fear? I was told that dogs have that ability. When humans are afraid, they give off an undetectable odor that dogs can react to. Was this undetectable odor actually making me more attractive to biting bugs?

The only way I was to find out was to lose my fear. And I needed to do two things in order to accomplish this feat. The first was to find a natural, organic and safe repellent that would act as a shield and give me complete confidence and peace of mind. The second was to bring this unresolved fear of biting bugs to the surface and dissolve it forever. And for that I would need the help of the one and only, Dr. Goodsoul.

And the results… will be in the next…

Healer Dealer Diary

*I have no financial interest with allergie-immun and I do not make any commission off of any sales.



Tuesday, July 3, 2012

"Fear Leads to Anger. Anger Leads to Hate. Hate Leads to Suffering."


Yoda – Star Wars Episode1: The Phantom Menace (1999)


Here I go again – another Star Wars quote (See Listen to Your Gut ) but how could I resist? I’m in the process of dissolving my fear of bug bites leading to chronic disease. Do I still have THE FEAR? Well, what do you think? I’m working on it! These rewired thoughts don’t change overnight. But, I truly feel that I had a chronic disease. It’s in the past. (Notice I said HAD!) And I also realized that I was angry! I was angry at myself for getting sick! And I suffered because of this thought.

When I was first diagnosed with Lyme disease, I thought that all I needed was a course of antibiotics and I would be back to normal. But, what I didn’t know at that time was that I was already in late stage Lyme. I knew something was wrong. I knew my symptoms were chronic. I knew being spacey, tired, woozy and achy every day wasn’t normal. But I also knew that the GP who prescribed the amoxicillin for me, knew very little about Lyme and I needed to find a LLMD. He couldn’t help me. I was on my own. And I was scared. I had to find an investigative doctor who understood how to treat chronic Lyme. For the first time in my life, I had to find a doctor that was out of network. I had no choice. I knew a ten minute doctor’s visit wasn’t going to solve my problem. And I certainly wasn’t going to wind up like this:



Thought I’d put in a little comic relief :). But, as you can see... there is a dark side...

The ugly truth is that there is a lot of misinformation and ambiguity surrounding Lyme disease and its treatment. It is a known fact that many LLMDs in the country (mostly members of ILADS (International Lyme and Associated Diseases Society) have disputed the CDC's and IDSA'S (Infectious Disease Society of America) recommended 2-4 week course of antibiotics for the treatment of Lyme. The CDC doesn’t recognize chronic Lyme disease. According to the CDC, patients with lingering symptoms, after taking the recommended course of antibiotics, have a condition called “Post-treatment Lyme disease Syndrome” in which “the exact cause of PTLDS is not yet known...”

There has been a huge debate over the treatment of Lyme. Many doctors have been actually targeted by state medical boards and have lost their licenses, for prescribing long term and intravenous antibiotics for their patients.

Award winning documentary, Under Our Skin, is a heart-rending and illuminating look at this controversial hidden epidemic. “Through dramatic stories of those who have been affected by the disease, the film shows how controversies concerning diagnosis and treatment are leaving patients abandoned by the mainstream medical establishment. As Lyme sufferers visit specialist after specialist, so many are told that their problems are “all in their heads.” Many are misdiagnosed with incurable and often deadly syndromes. Some lose their jobs, their health insurance, their life savings, and even their lives…”

So why is Lyme so mystifying? And how can it be so easily misdiagnosed by so many doctors? The answer lies in one word – testing. As the film points out, “standard testing is unreliable.” A negative test result could still mean you have the disease. Lyme is very complicated to diagnose (See Damn! We’re in a Tight Spot) The Bb spirochete likes to change forms. It likes to hide in your organs and soft tissue. And many times, it’s not alone. Co-infections such as, Babesia, Anaplasma and Bartonella, often are transmitted by the same tick that transmits the Lyme bacteria. And this is just the tip of the iceberg.

Only a competent investigative LLMD will know what other pathogens to test for and the appropriate labs to use. But there is a catch. Competent LLMD’s are few and far between. Many patients have to travel to another state for treatment. Most do not take insurance. Most of the labs that are the most reliable are private labs and are out of network. Supplements, herbs and possibly homeopathic support, may be an additional out of pocket expense.

A typical office visit including supplements may run a patient a couple hundred dollars. Lyme and co-infection testing could cost anywhere from $400.00 to well over $1,000.00. And then, last but not least, are the health insurance companies, who many times refuse to cover the long term Lyme treatment.

Patients are literally caught between a rock and a hard place. It’s no wonder why there is a tremendous amount of fear among Lyme patients. It’s no wonder why there is so much anger toward the “mainstream medical establishment” that defines Chronic Lyme as "Post-treatment Lyme disease Syndrome" – cause unknown. It’s no wonder that there are a lot of sick people out there who are misdiagnosed, mistreated and misguided by a broken, complacent system.

I was one of the angry patients. I hated myself for getting a complicated disease that caused financial burden and emotional stress for my husband and children. What frustrated me the most were the lengthy and costly treatments and testing that seemed to never end. It wasn’t until I brought my younger son in to see Doc Brown that I realized that this wasn’t working for me anymore. I had an epiphany. And it hit me while I observed Doc at a monthly doctor’s visit. I realized that my son and I would never be healed if we stayed with this doctor. I realized that I would always be chronically sick if I stayed within this system.

I had to leave…for my son’s sake.

I had to leave…to be healed.

To be cont…

Wednesday, June 13, 2012

"I Must Not Fear...Fear Is The Mind-Killer..."


From the Ben Gessirit “Litany Against Fear” - Dune (1984)

"Even though I fear bug bites leading to chronic disease, I believe that I have the power to be completely healthy and whole. Even though I fear chronic sickness, I believe with the guidance of God, I will dissolve this fear.”


I was in a surreal daydream. As I continued to tap and recite my personal Litany Against Fear, I suddenly felt lightheaded, weak and exhausted. My brain felt fried! My thoughts were unclear! I felt shell-shocked! Was this therapy that powerful?  I could hardly stand up from Dr. Gurevich’s examining table. My session with Dr. Gurevich was over for now, but I wasn’t ready to go home yet.  I certainly was in no condition to drive. So, I continued my litany and tapping with Dr. Gurevich’s assistant, in another office, for another half hour or so, until I was calm enough to drive home.

Before I left his office, Dr. Gurevich informed me that I had been experiencing a kind of Post Traumatic Stress Disorder over my first tick bite!  My anxiety over bug bites manifested into an anxiety disorder! Ay Yi Yi!  This was the psychological component of the neuropsychoimmunological loop - my fear of suspicious bites, triggered my fear of chronic disease, (aka Lyme), then triggered my immune system to react.  

Did tapping and affirmations actually bring this “mind-killer” to the surface? Was this why I was feeling so drained and shell-shocked?  Was this why my head was so fuzzy?
There was no question that my mental, emotional and physical states of being were responding in unison. And what was the connection?

FEAR!!!

Post Traumatic Stress Disorder or PTSD can happen to anyone who has experienced some type of traumatic episode in their life. I’ve always associated it with war veterans or victims of some type of terrifying event. But PTSD symptoms vary and can be hard to diagnose. Many people that have been diagnosed with chronic sickness or a devastating disease may have PTSD and are not aware of it. I was not aware that I had this “common” anxiety disorder.

And then it hit me! I was reliving MANY fears every time I got a suspicious bug bite.
I was reliving the fear that crept up inside of me when I was told that I had a persistent and complicated disease that would always be with me. I was reliving the fear that I was too powerless to fight this disease. I was reliving the fear of no one understanding what I was going through.  I was reliving the fear that somehow I was doomed and that I’d never be completely healthy and well.

These fear-laced thoughts were very real to me. I believed in these thoughts.  But these thoughts weren’t helping me. These thoughts were depressing my body, mind and soul. These thoughts were making me sicker.
                                                                                     
So now I’m in the process of changing these destructive thoughts and beliefs to healing frequencies. I’m in the process of changing my health and well-being. I’m in the process of rewiring harmful thought patterns to healing affirmations. And reciting affirmations are now a part of my life.

Through my affirmations, I have found a spiritual connection that I’m just beginning to understand. When I ask for the guidance of God or the Universe, I believe that I’m not in this struggle alone. I’m not asking God to heal me. I’m asking God to guide me and help me to heal myself.

 I’m asking God to help the healer within:

“I am ready to be well…I am ready to be completely well.”**

“I am willing to be well; My heart, brain, liver, breast….is able to heal and be totally well again.”**

“I give myself permission to be free of chronic disease from now on; I let go of every problem that causes my condition to occur and persist.” **

“I let go all of my beliefs that I will stay ill;  I let go of every problem that is blocking me from expressing God’s will through my thoughts, feelings, words, works and actions.”**

**   selections of affirmations prescribed by Dr. Gurevich



“All that we are is the result of what we have thought. The mind is everything. What we think we become.” - Buddha









Thursday, May 17, 2012

"...I Think I'm Getting The Fear..."


Dr. Gonzo – Fear and Loathing in Las Vegas (1998)


Here I was, over one thousand miles away from my home, and I was getting The Fear. Not the crazy, paranoia drug-induced kind of fear that Dr. Gonzo was experiencing. But the crazy, paranoia, Lyme-induced kind that I associated with suspicious bug bites.

I was on a mini-vacation in Florida and I was bitten by some flying insect, which left a suspicious mark.  The bite wasn’t anything like the supposed Lyme-infected mosquito bite that caused me to relapse in September. The bite was smaller and had a light pink circle around it. It grew to about the size of a 50 cent piece. By the next day, it was the size of a nickel. Still, the uncontrollable panic and Fear trigger from my tainted past, burst my happy bubble and sank me into a depressed state in a matter of minutes.

“Here I go again,” I bemoaned. “I can’t believe this is happening.” Of course I had the repellent on me, but it was a windy day. I didn’t think I needed it. But, thankfully, I had the doxycycline on me and I started to take it the next day, just in case.

When I saw Dr. Goodsoul the following week, he had another diagnosis for me. I was reacting emotionally. I had what he called a “neuropsychoimmunological” response. Very simply, my fear of suspicious bites, triggered my fear of chronic disease (aka chronic Lyme), which triggered my immune system to react.

The mind is very powerful. Your thoughts and emotions can influence your health.

Through muscle testing, Dr. Goodsoul discovered that I was still emotionally reacting to my first tick bite. I still felt the The Fear of Helplessness. The Fear of Hopelessness. The Fear of Isolation. The Fear of Depression. The Fear of Chronic Sickness.

I had unknowingly imprinted this fear as a regular thought pattern. I often wondered if my fear of biting bugs can actually attract biting bugs in my direction. Was this possible? I remember having a fear of Lyme disease before I became sick with Lyme. I thought about it every time I would walk on the grass. Could my fear of Lyme (plus other factors), help to depress my immune system to the point where I got sick? Does fear really attract fear?  Can Fear make you sick?

Holistic practitioners see the mind, body and spirit connection. Dr. Goodsoul knows the devastating effect that negative emotions have on your health. Can unresolved fears make you sick? Absolutely! Can negative emotions attract more negative emotions? Yes, again!   Can my unresolved fear be resolved? Yes!  

So, as I lay on Dr. Goodsoul’s examining table, I started to recall that moment in my life when I discovered the first horrendous bite that lead to chronic Lyme. Dr. Goodsoul gave me purple (emotional) glasses to calm me down. While wearing the glasses, I gazed at his hand as he hypnotically made a figure eight pattern above my face.

Now, comes the interesting part…I started to tap, using all my fingers, on specific acupuncture points. As I tapped I recited my Fear:

“I’m afraid of bug bites leading to chronic disease. I’m afraid I will never be completely well. I’m afraid that I don’t have the power to be well. I’m afraid of chronic disease.”

I felt almost nauseous from this huge emotional upheaval that was raging inside of me. I was hearing words that I didn’t want to hear. I had to face something I didn’t want to face. What had been at the back of my mind, every minute of every day, was now exposed.

I began to hoarsely hum as I continued tapping. Tears were streaming down my face. All I kept thinking was that I had to go on. I had to finish this. There was no turning back.

Before we went to the next step, Dr. Goodsoul turned to me and said:

“So, what did you learn?”

What did I learn? I never expected him to ask me that question. I took the glasses off ,  collected my thoughts and whispered haltingly, “ I’m afraid of chronic disease.”

“Yes. And now you are going to begin to dissolve this fear.”

So, I resumed tapping. I was prompted to say powerful statements to undo what I had done to myself. I was now saying spiritual and emotional words of affirmations:

“Even though, I fear bug bites leading to chronic disease, I believe that I have the power to be completely healthy and whole.”

“Even though, I fear bug bites leading to chronic disease, I believe that through God’s guidance and help, I will be completely healthy and whole.”

“Even though, I fear chronic disease, I give myself permission, through God’s light and love, to be completely healthy and whole.”

I was asking for God’s guidance and help – in Dr. Goodsoul’s office.

We are all spiritual beings, after all. And sometimes, we need extra help – from within.


The greatest mistake in the treatment of diseases
Is that there are physicians for the body and
physicians for the soul,
although the two cannot be separated.

-PLATO (427-347 BC)


To be cont…












Friday, April 13, 2012

"Damn! We're in a Tight Spot!"


Ulysses Everett McGill in O Brother, Where Are Thou? 2000 

O brother, I was in a tight spot alright! Here I was, sitting in Dr. Goodsoul’s office and freaking out over the devastating news that my old infection was re-activated.  And it was from a mosquito bite, no less. Did this mean that mosquitoes could transmit Lyme? Or, was there something in the mosquito’s saliva that somehow triggered the spirochetes to re-enter my bloodstream and cause symptoms?

As of now, there is no scientific evidence proving that mosquitoes can transmit Lyme to humans. But there is published scientific data that shows the presence of the Lyme Bb bacteria (Borrelia burgdorferi) in mosquitoes as well as tears!

Dr. Lida Mattman, a nominee for the Nobel Prize of Medicine, was a brilliant bacteriologist who devoted close to fifty years researching spirochetes. She was able to extract and study Lyme spirochetes from mosquitoes, gnats, ticks, fleas, as well as urine, semen and blood.

In her revolutionary book, Cell Wall Deficient Form: Stealth Pathogens, she identifies the pleomorphic Bb bacteria as having the ability to convert from a spirochete to other forms, such as the cyst form, the cell-wall deficient form and bio-films. The problem with these “morphed” forms is that they are very hard to treat. The cyst (a tightly coiled sac of spirochetes), the CWD (lacks a cell wall) and the bio-film (which is a colony of cysts) are resistant to many antibiotics.  Dr. Mattman’s research also shows that the CWD or cell-wall deficient bacteria, may be responsible for many chronic illnesses, including Lyme, MS, ALS and Parkinson’s disease.

Dr. Goodsoul was very familiar with the “morphed” forms of Lyme and he didn’t waste a minute. He looked at me and said, “You must have ozone irradiation intravenous therapy and you must start as soon as possible. Can you start treatment today?”

I knew nothing about this new therapy but did I have a choice? If Dr. Goodsoul recommended it to me, it must work. And considering all of his other therapies benefited me so far, I knew this was what I had to do. So as his nurse practitioner was prepping me for the IV, Dr. Goodsoul explained that this therapy was actually two therapies in one.

“First, blood is withdrawn and injected into the saline solution. Oxygenated ozone is bubbled into the blood and mixed. Then, this blood solution is exposed to ultra-violet light as it is re-infused into your body.”

Dr.Goodsoul raved how this therapy helps the body to function at a more efficient state. It oxygenates the blood and cytokine* cells so that the body can combat bacteria  (including spirochetes), viruses, parasites, bacterial yeast, and the bio-films. The best part was that there were no side effects. I needed eight weekly treatments to halt the extent of the infection. The procedure lasted about 45 minutes and the only time I experienced a significant herx (die-off reaction) was after the first treatment. I was so spacey that I went through a stop sign on the way home. I arrived home safe but I must admit it was a challenge to keep my mind steady and focused on the road.

My foggy thoughts kept on straying to the AI drops. I knew I had to re-submit my saliva to the allergie-immun lab as soon as possible. But the problem was that my therapy had been finished two months ago. I was worried. Would they honor my original account and not charge me for a whole new course? “Well,” I thought,” there was only one way to find out.”  

So, when I got home, I wrote them a note explaining that I was re-infected, and along with my saliva sample, mailed it to Germany that very day.

Sure enough, about three weeks later, another round of drops had arrived in the mail. The analysis revealed chemical, energetic and biological disruptions. And to my delight, they didn’t charge me any additional fee.

It took just one more round of drops and the completion of the ozone therapy to get my health back to my previous state.  The Lyme is in remission and I’m feeling good again.

Dr. Goodsoul believes that it is possible that mosquitoes and biting flies could transmit Lyme. So do many other LLMD’s. And so do many Lyme patients who can’t recall being bitten by a tick. It’s true that the nymph deer tick is the size of a pinhead. Ticks also secrete an anti-inflammatory into their saliva when they feed. Therefore, many times they go unnoticed.

So far, research and funding is only limited to ticks. This may change in the future. Public awareness and data are the key factors. Suspicious bites from flying insects should not be ignored. If there is enough data, then maybe researchers like Dr. Kerry Clark could open up a whole new can of microscopic worms (aka spirochetes!)

Dr. Kerry Clark, associate professor of Epidemiology and Environmental Health at the University of North Florida, has devoted his life to researching the cause and transmission of Lyme disease and other tick-borne diseases. He would “love to investigate if wild mosquitoes contain Lyme Borrelia DNA.” But he needs info from YOU!

Send clear digital photos of your bite (put a coin next to the bite for size comparison). Include the date (clipped from a newspaper or magazine) in the photo, a full body shot and a description of your experience and symptoms, if any.

Send data to Dr. Kerry Clark – kclark@unf.edu 

And at the same time, send a copy of your info to the CDC – CDCINFO@cdc.gov  or http://www.cdc.gov/lyme/   and your doctor, too.

It took me three months to get out of my “tight spot.” I will never know if that mosquito that bit me was indeed infected with Lyme. But my gut tells me that this wasn’t an isolated incident. I believe many of us who have been exposed to Lyme in the past are at a higher risk for re-infection.  The good news for me is that the fear of relapse and returning to a chronic state of sickness is fading away.

Now my road to healing will lead me into another path. 

My road to healing will lead me to another dimension.

My road to healing will lead me to answers.


“I cannot tell you how long this road shall be, but fear not the obstacles in your path, for fate has vouchsafed your reward. Though the road may wind, yea, your hearts grow weary, still shall ye follow them, even unto your salvation.”
Blind Seer – O Brother, Where Art Thou?




*cytokine - a protein secreted by the lymph cells that affect cellular activity and controls inflammation. (Encarta Dictionary)