Healing Through Forgiveness

Forgiveness liberates the soul. It removes fear. That is why it is such a powerful weapon. 

                                                Nelson Mandela (Invictus) 2009

I was taking  piano lessons from a teacher who had very high standards and very rarely praised any of her students.   I won many competitions and played with a symphony orchestra at a young age.  However, no matter how well I played, I felt that I “just wasn’t good enough.”  Could this be why I felt I never fully reached my full potential as a musician? I always felt something inside was blocking me. It was like a fear.  A fear of “not being good enough.”

The particular phrase, “I’m not good enough", brought back one specific memory of a  piano performance. I had made it to the finals of a state competition and I remember being terrified of blanking out in the middle of the piece. My thoughts were so consumed with forgetting the music that I actually did blank out. I ended up taking second place and feeling incredibly disappointed in myself. And then I thought of how my teacher would react. She was so…oh my God, that’s when it hit me. My teacher was so demanding and highly critical that nothing was ever good enough. No matter how hard I worked, there was always something to improve or perfect. No matter how well I played, I never received positive feedback. I could never make her happy.

She saw me as a future concert pianist. That’s why she was so hard on me. The problem was that I did not know what I wanted. I did not know if I had what it took to make it in such a demanding field. I did not know if I wanted to pursue a career in performing classical music. I loved rock! I loved listening to WNEW - FM! I loved listening to progressive bands like Emerson, Lake and Palmer! (My teenage dream was to be able to play like Keith Emerson – the bands ingeniously talented and creative keyboard wiz.)  And, of course, I loved classical, too. But classical piano was a study for me. Classical piano meant work, discipline, time, and the constant pressure of perfection. And, always at the back of my mind was a little voice saying, “would I ever be good enough”?

As I recalled this past event, Dr. Rasa had me wear green colored plastic glasses and  told me to stare at the pendulum that she swung right above my face. Uncontrollable tears started to roll down my cheeks as I recalled these painful memories. Reassuringly, she told me that I was now aware of the source of these emotions and I was ready to release it. So, as I lay on her examining table, I repeated these healing words that were prompted by her:

“I was a child. You were the adult. I wanted to do my best. I wanted to make you happy. You were my teacher. You wanted the best for me. You taught me to the best of your ability. I was hurt. I looked up to you… You didn’t understand my feelings. You felt you were doing your best… I’m sorry that I couldn’t make you happy. I’m sorry that you didn’t understand my feelings… I forgive you. I forgive you. I forgive you...”

As I recited these words, I followed Dr. Rasa’s instruction and began to tap with all my fingers on these specific acupuncture points -  the top of my head, above my eyebrows, on my temples, back of my neck, on my cheekbone, above my lip, above my chin, using the sides of my hand (like a chicken) on my ribs, and my chest.*

I was in a stupor. I was reliving this moment in my past as if it was happening right then and now. But saying the words, “I forgive you” to my former piano teacher was completely surreal.  I never realized how powerful those words are. I never realized that I was harming myself!  I always knew that my teacher wanted the best for me. That’s why I never thought of looking for a more emotionally positive substitute. I can’t deny that she inspired and motivated me to play my best. But my teenage years were awkward and clumsy. I was slightly chubby and had acne. My self-esteem hit rock bottom.  I felt that playing piano was the only thing going for me so I put all of my eggs into that basket. So, when I heard criticism from my teacher, I took it personally. When I heard that my playing wasn’t good enough, I took it to heart. I made it hard for myself. I just didn’t know it at that time. I also didn’t know how it would affect me for the rest of my life.

So, I had to forgive her. I had to let it go. I had to release this incapacitating feeling of not being good enough! I had to do it… to heal!  This feeling was affecting my whole entire being. And, frankly, I was tired of it. My days of not being good enough were over and I say good riddance!  So, with one long, sobby breath, I whispered, “I forgive you, I forgive you, I forgive you.”  

And as I repeated those magical words, a wave of deep serenity flowed through me.  I could actually feel this heaviness lift from my body. I felt at peace. I felt good.

This was the beginning of my return to wellness. About a month later, I started to feel better. I truly believed that my body was healing. My chronic symptoms became less burdensome and some were disappearing altogether.

Releasing negativity is a healing process that anyone can do. If we think of ourselves in a negative way, we are harming ourselves. If we think of others in a negative way, we are also harming ourselves. We are emotional beings. Emotions have frequencies! When we replace the damaging frequencies of negative thoughts with the nurturing frequencies of  forgiveness, love and gratitude, we are helping ourselves. It’s that simple.

  

Forgiving others is one of the greatest gifts that you can give yourself. When you forgive those who hurt you, you are radiating an invisible healing light throughout your body. You are also sending these healing frequencies to the other person. It is a win-win situation. Believe me, it works and you’ll feel the difference!

I am learning to be in a positive frame of mind. I am learning to release the “bad vibes” that may come my way or that I may project upon myself.  The feeling of “not being good enough” is long gone, thank God!

The first step in a positive direction is being aware. I’m aware of what makes me content, now. I’m aware of what makes me happy. Being aware is a daily process. 

Being aware is what it’s all about.

*APN – Applied Psycho-Neurobiology-  is a deep therapeutic technique for treating the origin of disease. Taught in the US by Dietrich Klinghardt, M.D., Ph.D., APN is the result of the work of many physiologists, researchers, psychotherapists, psychologists, medical doctors and patient. Combining these disciplines provides a more balanced level of healing than standard approaches… The results are subtle, deep and permanent. Many find this process to be life-transforming.

The theory and research suggest that all life events are recorded by the subconscious. Memories of these events can be complete and resolved or unresolved. The unresolved psycho-emotional conflicts are the most common cause of illness and chronic pain. Unresolved conflicts create significant bioelectrical disturbances in conflict specific areas of the brain, producing abnormal neuropeptides and abnormal electrical currents which reach the hypothalamus, sending out stress signals which create dysfunctions in related organs.

APN is designed to identify the unresolved psycho-emotional conflict and uncouple the unresolved conflict from the nervous system, thereby diffusing the source of chronic illness.

APN is one of many approaches using acumeridian points, tapping on them to influence the flow of energies.

© Danette Whelan 2012

DECODING ALLERGIE IMMUN

“I’m convinced that all chronic diseases are caused by bio-energetic blockages. It is only through these bio-energetic blockages that bacteria and viruses can enter the body and cause physical disorder.” – Heinz Grundmeyer – founder of Allergie-Immun (Private Institute for Complimentary Medicinal Research)

ALLERGIE - IMMUN*, a revolutionary energetic therapy, corrects the systemic errors (that are identified in each analysis) in order to bring the body back to a balanced, harmonious and regulated state.

According to the Allergie- Immun philosophy: “A person is not sick because of the disease, but rather because the body is in a state of regulatory impasse. The “disease” is merely an expression of the body of this dead-end situation. Removing the obstacles that   led the body into this dead-end sick state, often results in relief from chronic symptoms and disappearance of the disease altogether. The following illustration shows a clearer picture of this process:

“You are in a strange city and looking for the way to the highway. A passerby tells you to make a turn on to the next street to get to the highway. But when you turn into the road, you end up at a dead end and can not continue. You are now blocked. The body shows this blockage by symptoms. You are blocked because of false or misinformation. When this false information is corrected, you can find the highway and proceed to a regulated state…”

REGU-IMMUNE or ALLERGIE-IMMUN THERAPY analyzes and corrects false biological information that is stored as patterns in the DNA, so that the body naturally can regulate again.  The result: chronic disorders disappear.”

“Our cells are in constant communication with each other. The cells in our body are always in connection with each other. They continuously align their information. ALLERGIE-IMMUN corrects the abnormal cell communication resulting from incorrect  biological patterns in the DNA leading to chronic disorders.”

Demystifying chronic Lyme.  Why can’t our bodies eliminate the Bb bacteria, co-infections and viruses that are associated with chronic Lyme? Is it due to our immune systems being so overloaded with “obstacles” and “errors” that our bodies do not have any energy left to fight the disease?  “Allergie - Immun therapy corrects the systemic errors and disruptive patterns that can lead to chronic disease. These errors may include food substances (milk and grain), environmental chemicals, energetic blocks, biological blocks, heavy metals, mold and toxins. Chemical substances, that are stored in the DNA as patterns, are a particular challenge to our bodies. We are exposed to 80,000 substances on a daily basis, so erroneous patterns are likely to happen.  Each analysis identifies and corrects these disruptions so that your body can naturally regulate again.”

“Allergies and auto-immune diseases are caused by misinformation. When you have an allergy, the body reacts to a foreign substance (e.g. wheat), as if it was an enemy. The message says: Attention. Enemy. Attack. Then the body-owned cell formations send this allergic information to other important cells that now fight against something they believe is the enemy. Our body is actually misinterpreting this information. The allergens are  harmless substances. They are not making you sick. It’s your body’s reaction to the allergen that is causing a response.  This same process occurs in auto-immune diseases such as Rheumatoid arthritis, Multiple Sclerosis, Celiac disease, Crohn’s disease, Scleroderma and so on.”

“Misinformation, leading to symptoms, can be inherited! The truth is that many errors (incorrect information) leading to symptoms can be inherited for generations. Allergie - Immun  therapy corrects the causes that lead to symptoms.”

“Misinformation, leading to symptoms, can be caused by psycho-somatic factors! A person’s health can largely be determined by his emotional life. Long lasting, negative emotions such as anger, hatred or fear, can weaken a body and its functions to a great extent and cause a huge number of diseases. Man must be on a harmonious emotional level, in order to live a healthy life…Allergie - Immun therapy  can recognize the triggers of these negative emotions…” But it is up to the patient to identify and release these emotions to promote healing. And it is up to the patient to believe in this therapy in order to further the healing process.

Holistic practitioners believe that mainstream medicine does not know the actual cause of chronic disease. The truth is that the number of people with chronic conditions is increasing at an alarming rate. Is our exposure to all the fear and negativity that is present in our society making us sicker? Does the pollution in our environment reflect the pollution in our bodies?  Is it possible to overcome chronic suffering and live a healthy and harmonious life? What do you think? Do you want to live a healthier, harmonious and balanced life?

Of course you do! And you can!  The question is…can you be open to therapies like Allergie - Immun? The AI  therapy has worked for me. This therapy has worked for my son and it’s worked for Dr. Gurevich. He understands the concept of this therapy and has recommended it to his patients. He understands that chronic disease can be reversed. He understands that past unresolved emotional blocks can lead to disease. And, last but not least, he understands that it is necessary to achieve emotional, physical, mental and spiritual balance for optimal health, happiness and fulfillment.

Everyone needs to achieve an emotional, physical, mental and spiritual balance for optimal health and happiness. This is the holistic approach to wellness. And this is the goal of Heinz and his research team at Allergie - Immun.

“There is a solution for everything.”

All quotes are from the Allergie-Immun  Information Brochure and the Allergie Immun website  www.allergie-immun.de/englisch     

*I have no financial interest with allergie-immun and do not make any commission off of any sales.

© Danette Whelan 2012

"I Must Not Fear...Fear Is The Mind-Killer..."

From the Ben Gessirit “Litany Against Fear” - Dune (1984)

"Even though I fear bug bites leading to chronic disease, I believe that I have the power to be completely healthy and whole. Even though I fear chronic sickness, I believe with the guidance of God, I will dissolve this fear.”

I was in a surreal daydream. As I continued to tap and recite my personal Litany Against Fear, I suddenly felt lightheaded, weak and exhausted. My brain felt fried! My thoughts were unclear! I felt shell-shocked! Was this therapy that powerful?  I could hardly stand up from Dr. Gurevich’s examining table. My session with Dr. Gurevich was over for now, but I wasn’t ready to go home yet.  I certainly was in no condition to drive. So, I continued my litany and tapping with Dr. Gurevich’s assistant, in another office, for another half hour or so, until I was calm enough to drive home.

Before I left his office, Dr. Gurevich informed me that I had been experiencing a kind of Post Traumatic Stress Disorder over my first tick bite!  My anxiety over bug bites manifested into an anxiety disorder! Ay Yi Yi!  This was the psychological component of the neuropsychoimmunological loop - my fear of suspicious bites, triggered my fear of chronic disease, (aka Lyme), then triggered my immune system to react.  

Did tapping and affirmations actually bring this “mind-killer” to the surface? Was this why I was feeling so drained and shell-shocked?  Was this why my head was so fuzzy?

There was no question that my mental, emotional and physical states of being were responding in unison. And what was the connection?

FEAR!!!

Post Traumatic Stress Disorder or PTSD can happen to anyone who has experienced some type of traumatic episode in their life. I’ve always associated it with war veterans or victims of some type of terrifying event. But PTSD symptoms vary and can be hard to diagnose. Many people that have been diagnosed with chronic sickness or a devastating disease may have PTSD and are not aware of it. I was not aware that I had this “common” anxiety disorder.

And then it hit me! I was reliving MANY fears every time I got a suspicious bug bite.

I was reliving the fear that crept up inside of me when I was told that I had a persistent and complicated disease that would always be with me. I was reliving the fear that I was too powerless to fight this disease. I was reliving the fear of no one understanding what I was going through.  I was reliving the fear that somehow I was doomed and that I’d never be completely healthy and well.

These fear-laced thoughts were very real to me. I believed in these thoughts.  But these thoughts weren’t helping me. These thoughts were depressing my body, mind and soul. These thoughts were making me sicker.

                                                                                     

So now I’m in the process of changing these destructive thoughts and beliefs to healing frequencies. I’m in the process of changing my health and well-being. I’m in the process of rewiring harmful thought patterns to healing affirmations. And reciting affirmations are now a part of my life.

Through my affirmations, I have found a spiritual connection that I’m just beginning to understand. When I ask for the guidance of God or the Universe, I believe that I’m not in this struggle alone. I’m not asking God to heal me. I’m asking God to guide me and help me to heal myself.

 I’m asking God to help the healer within:

“I am ready to be well…I am ready to be completely well.”**

“I am willing to be well; My heart, brain, liver, breast….is able to heal and be totally well again.”**

“I give myself permission to be free of chronic disease from now on; I let go of every problem that causes my condition to occur and persist.” **

“I let go all of my beliefs that I will stay ill;  I let go of every problem that is blocking me from expressing God’s will through my thoughts, feelings, words, works and actions.”**

**   selections of affirmations prescribed by Dr. Gurevich

“All that we are is the result of what we have thought. The mind is everything. What we think we become.” - Buddha

"...I Think I'm Getting The Fear..."

Dr. Gonzo – Fear and Loathing in Las Vegas (1998)

Here I was, over one thousand miles away from my home, and I was getting The Fear. Not the crazy, paranoia drug-induced kind of fear that Dr. Gonzo was experiencing. But the crazy, paranoia, Lyme-induced kind that I associated with suspicious bug bites.

I was on a mini-vacation in Florida and I was bitten by some flying insect, which left a suspicious mark.  The bite wasn’t anything like the supposed Lyme-infected mosquito bite that caused me to relapse in September. The bite was smaller and had a light pink circle around it. It grew to about the size of a 50 cent piece. By the next day, it was the size of a nickel. Still, the uncontrollable panic and Fear trigger from my tainted past, burst my happy bubble and sank me into a depressed state in a matter of minutes.

“Here I go again,” I bemoaned. “I can’t believe this is happening.” Of course I had the repellent on me, but it was a windy day. I didn’t think I needed it. But, thankfully, I had the doxycycline on me and I started to take it the next day, just in case.

When I saw Dr. Goodsoul the following week, he had another diagnosis for me. I was reacting emotionally. I had what he called a “neuropsychoimmunological” response. Very simply, my fear of suspicious bites, triggered my fear of chronic disease (aka chronic Lyme), which triggered my immune system to react.

The mind is very powerful. Your thoughts and emotions can influence your health.

Through muscle testing, Dr. Goodsoul discovered that I was still emotionally reacting to my first tick bite. I still felt the The Fear of Helplessness. The Fear of Hopelessness. The Fear of Isolation. The Fear of Depression. The Fear of Chronic Sickness.

I had unknowingly imprinted this fear as a regular thought pattern. I often wondered if my fear of biting bugs can actually attract biting bugs in my direction. Was this possible? I remember having a fear of Lyme disease before I became sick with Lyme. I thought about it every time I would walk on the grass. Could my fear of Lyme (plus other factors), help to depress my immune system to the point where I got sick? Does fear really attract fear?  Can Fear make you sick?

Holistic practitioners see the mind, body and spirit connection. Dr. Goodsoul knows the devastating effect that negative emotions have on your health. Can unresolved fears make you sick? Absolutely! Can negative emotions attract more negative emotions? Yes, again!   Can my unresolved fear be resolved? Yes!  

So, as I lay on Dr. Goodsoul’s examining table, I started to recall that moment in my life when I discovered the first horrendous bite that lead to chronic Lyme. Dr. Goodsoul gave me purple (emotional) glasses to calm me down. While wearing the glasses, I gazed at his hand as he hypnotically made a figure eight pattern above my face.

Now, comes the interesting part…I started to tap, using all my fingers, on specific acupuncture points. As I tapped I recited my Fear:

“I’m afraid of bug bites leading to chronic disease. I’m afraid I will never be completely well. I’m afraid that I don’t have the power to be well. I’m afraid of chronic disease.”

I felt almost nauseous from this huge emotional upheaval that was raging inside of me. I was hearing words that I didn’t want to hear. I had to face something I didn’t want to face. What had been at the back of my mind, every minute of every day, was now exposed.

I began to hoarsely hum as I continued tapping. Tears were streaming down my face. All I kept thinking was that I had to go on. I had to finish this. There was no turning back.

Before we went to the next step, Dr. Goodsoul turned to me and said:

“So, what did you learn?”

What did I learn? I never expected him to ask me that question. I took the glasses off ,  collected my thoughts and whispered haltingly, “ I’m afraid of chronic disease.”

“Yes. And now you are going to begin to dissolve this fear.”

So, I resumed tapping. I was prompted to say powerful statements to undo what I had done to myself. I was now saying spiritual and emotional words of affirmations:

“Even though, I fear bug bites leading to chronic disease, I believe that I have the power to be completely healthy and whole.”

“Even though, I fear bug bites leading to chronic disease, I believe that through God’s guidance and help, I will be completely healthy and whole.”

“Even though, I fear chronic disease, I give myself permission, through God’s light and love, to be completely healthy and whole.”

I was asking for God’s guidance and help – in Dr. Goodsoul’s office.

We are all spiritual beings, after all. And sometimes, we need extra help – from within.

The greatest mistake in the treatment of diseases

Is that there are physicians for the body and

physicians for the soul,

although the two cannot be separated.

-PLATO (427-347 BC)

To be cont…

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