From the Ben Gessirit “Litany Against Fear” - Dune (1984)
"Even though I fear bug bites leading to chronic disease, I
believe that I have the power to be completely healthy and whole. Even though I
fear chronic sickness, I believe with the guidance of God, I will dissolve this
fear.”
I was in a surreal daydream. As I continued to tap and recite
my personal Litany Against Fear, I suddenly felt lightheaded, weak and
exhausted. My brain felt fried! My thoughts were unclear! I felt shell-shocked!
Was this therapy that powerful? I could
hardly stand up from Dr. Gurevich’s examining table. My session with Dr.
Gurevich was over for now, but I wasn’t ready to go home yet. I certainly was in no condition to drive. So,
I continued my litany and tapping with Dr. Gurevich’s assistant, in another
office, for another half hour or so, until I was calm enough to drive home.
Before I left his office, Dr. Gurevich informed me that I
had been experiencing a kind of Post Traumatic Stress Disorder over my first
tick bite! My anxiety over bug bites
manifested into an anxiety disorder! Ay Yi Yi! This was the psychological component of the neuropsychoimmunological
loop - my fear of suspicious bites, triggered my fear of chronic disease, (aka
Lyme), then triggered my immune system to react.
Did tapping and affirmations actually bring this
“mind-killer” to the surface? Was this why I was feeling so drained and
shell-shocked? Was this why my head was
so fuzzy?
There was no question that my mental, emotional and physical
states of being were responding in unison. And what was the connection?
FEAR!!!
Post Traumatic Stress Disorder or PTSD can happen to anyone
who has experienced some type of traumatic episode in their life. I’ve always
associated it with war veterans or victims of some type of terrifying event. But
PTSD symptoms vary and can be hard to diagnose. Many people that have been
diagnosed with chronic sickness or a devastating disease may have PTSD and are
not aware of it. I was not aware that I had this “common” anxiety disorder.
And then it hit me! I was reliving MANY fears every time I
got a suspicious bug bite.
I was reliving the fear that crept up inside of me when I
was told that I had a persistent and complicated disease that would always be
with me. I was reliving the fear that I was too powerless to fight this
disease. I was reliving the fear of no one understanding what I was going through.
I was reliving the fear that somehow I
was doomed and that I’d never be completely healthy and well.
These fear-laced thoughts were very real to me. I believed
in these thoughts. But these thoughts
weren’t helping me. These thoughts were depressing my body, mind and soul. These
thoughts were making me sicker.
So now I’m in the process of changing these destructive
thoughts and beliefs to healing frequencies. I’m in the process of changing my health
and well-being. I’m in the process of rewiring harmful thought patterns to
healing affirmations. And reciting affirmations are now a part of my life.
Through my affirmations, I have found a spiritual connection
that I’m just beginning to understand. When I ask for the guidance of God or
the Universe, I believe that I’m not in this struggle alone. I’m not asking God
to heal me. I’m asking God to
guide me and help me to heal myself.
I’m asking God to help the healer within:
“I am ready to be well…I am ready to be completely well.”**
“I am willing to be well; My heart, brain, liver, breast….is
able to heal and be totally well again.”**
“I give myself permission to be free of chronic disease from
now on; I let go of every problem that causes my condition to occur and
persist.” **
“I let go all of my beliefs that I will stay ill; I let go of every problem that is blocking me
from expressing God’s will through my thoughts, feelings, words, works and
actions.”**
** selections of affirmations
prescribed by Dr. Gurevich
“All that we are is the result of what we have thought. The mind is everything. What
we think we become.” - Buddha
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