Sunday, February 16, 2014

YOU CAN CHANGE YOUR THOUGHTS!


After reading The Power of Now by Eckhart Tolle, I realized that I was not aware of my thoughts. When I became conscious of my thoughts, I was shocked to realize that many of my thoughts were self-critical and disapproving.

I unknowingly criticized and called myself derogatory names  on a daily basis!        Whenever I dropped something, felt frustrated or could not live up to some kind of unrealistic expectation, I would call myself names that became part of my “normal thoughts”.

 I’m an idiot! I’m a  moron! I’m  such a jerk! I’m a nitwit! I’m out of it! I’m so stupid! I’m so dumb! I’m such a klutz! I hate myself! What is my problem? became daily self-abusive  thoughts for many years!

I also criticized myself every time I looked in the mirror.

I hate my hair! I hate my eyebrows! I wish my thighs were thinner! I wish my legs were longer! I wish I had bigger breasts! I wish I was thinner! I wish I had perfect skin! etc, were just some of the negative patterns spinning inside my head.

Ever since I was a teenager, these self-inflicting words were part of my “normal” thought process. As a matter of fact, the words, ”I’m out of it” became almost like a mantra. I said it all the time!  Could this have been a self-fulfilling prophecy?

 In my 30’s, I became sick with chronic Lyme (MSIDS - Multi-Systemic Infectious Disease Syndrome). One of my worst symptoms was brain fog, which consisted of overwhelming mental fatigue, loss of concentration and memory. I had indeed become “out of it”… for almost 13 years. Could years of seeing myself in a negative light affect me physically? Could negative thoughts lead to sickness and ultimately, disease?

It’s no coincidence that as I uncovered and released negative emotions, I began to truly heal from chronic Lyme. And I have Dr. Goodsoul to thank for helping me to recognize how positive and negative thoughts can affect not only me but all of us.

Dr.  Masaru Emoto’s well publicized experiments with water, demonstrate the power of thought. He exposed different thoughts, as well as music, to water before freezing it. If negative thoughts like, “I hate you”, were projected onto the water, the crystals that formed were fragmented.  But when the water was exposed to prayer, soothing music and positive thoughts, the ice crystals were beautifully formed and breathtaking!

Watch this video and see for yourself!



Dr. Goodsoul introduced me to the concept of blessings, prayer and positive affirmations   to replace  negative thought patterns. This version of the ancient Hawaiian prayer, Ho’oponopono, was crucial in bringing me toward a more positive and healthier state of mind. This prayer was given to me by Dr. Goodsoul…

Ho’oponopono
(Prayer used by Hawaiian healer, Morna Simeona)

Divine Creator
Father, Mother, Son as one…
If I, my family, my relatives or ancestors have offended
You, your family, your relatives and ancestors
In thought, word, deed or actions,
From the beginning of creation to the present
We ask your forgiveness…
Let this cleanse, purify, release,
Cut all the negative memories,
Blocks, energies and vibrations,
And transmute these unwanted energies to LIGHT…
It is done.
I LOVE YOU.
I’M SORRY.
PLEASE FORGIVE ME.
THANK YOU.

As I began to observe my thoughts, I realized that many of my negative thoughts would pop up when I was doing chores around the house. So I would keep a copy of this prayer in my pocket and pull it out and recite it over and over again, until I felt calm and peaceful.

Reciting and repeating the shorter version of the prayer,
I LOVE YOU. I’M SORRY. PLEASE FORGIVE ME. and THANK YOU., was also a powerful healing mantra for me.

Correcting unhealthy negative thought patterns is a daily process. And if you haven’t guessed by now,  it takes a lot of work and patience! I no longer call myself harmful names.  Instead, when I feel stressed or frustrated, I say this healing mantra:

“I’M DOING THE BEST I CAN. ALL IS WELL.” 

I also think of all the things that I’m thankful for. I say:

"I LOVE YOU. I’M SORRY.  PLEASE FORGIVE ME. and THANK YOU". – over and over again. I take a big deep breath and within seconds, I’m at peace and actually feel that “ALL IS WELL!”   

And now when I look in the mirror, I happily exclaim, I LOVE YOU!, I AM WONDERFUL! I FEEL GREAT! I AM BLESSED! I FEEL BEAUTIFUL!  Saying these affirmations make me feel good!  But truly believing these words are still a struggle. It is not easy changing a thought pattern that has been with you most of your life.

But with practice and determination, it can be done. Anyone can do this. When you change your thoughts in a positive direction, your life will change, too.

Our thoughts and emotions are very powerful. We can uplift ourselves with the positive emotions of love, gratitude, forgiveness and compassion. And we can overcome the negative thoughts that we inflict on ourselves. But first we need to search our past and find the root cause of our negativity. We weren’t born this way. I know I wasn’t!

I had a happy childhood. But as I got older, things started to change. So what happened to me? How did I get so negative? How did I become so self-critical? When did my thoughts start becoming… my own worst enemy?

To be cont…



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